I made the classic mistake yesterday of going about my business as if I was a normal human being. I didn’t set my self up for success. It is paramount when you have a chronic illness to think ahead when planning to interact with the outside world. I call it ‘Preparing Myself For Public Consumption’.
I had a meeting to attend last night at 6:30. I already felt the familiar ‘my body is filled with cement and pointy things’ feeling. My heavy eyes rolled toward the clock at six, and I drug myself up off the couch and out the door.
Now, I had a choice. There where a few errands I had to run before I came back home that night. I decided to do half before the meeting and the other half after. If I had waited to do everything after the meeting I would have been exhausted by time I got home. Wrong move.
It was 115 here yesterday as I carried four heavy totes full of books across a heat mirage strewn parking lot. As I approached the front doors to the Used Book Seller, I could see a woman leaning lazily on the counter, staring at me through the glass. Her elbows never left the surface propping her up as she watched me struggle to open the doors with full arms and dripping pits.
She’ll never know how close she came to a hurled used copy of ‘How We Do Harm’ by Otis Brawley, M.D. Hmmm….poetic justice….
Needless to say, by the time I arrived at my meeting I was in a less than stellar mood.
I was not at my best. I did not treat others with the patience that was sorely required (italics denote severe mental eye roll). I will be better prepared next week.
Oh, and I was exhausted by the time I got home.
This child is perfection. Replace ‘Kindergarten’ with ‘how I usually feel when I have to leave the house’. She has channeled my inner soul:
Recipe Of The Week #2
~Whole Wheat Banana Muffins with Bittersweet Chocolate and Honey Nut Butter Frosting~
~recipe for Honey Sweetened Banana Bread (omit nuts)(use good quality whole wheat flour or AP GF)
~bittersweet chocolate chips
~1 cup nut butter of choice (I used peanut)
~1/3 cup raw organic honey
Replace nuts in recipe with choc chips. Line muffin pan, fill 3/4 full and bake at 350 for 20 min. Let cool. Mix butter and honey and spoon atop muffins.