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Discouraged ~ 2 Ways Not Judge That Help You As Well

So here’s a couple things that suck:

1.  I have been eating very healthy, staying as active as I can, and generally feeling upbeat about my appearance and health.  Over the last 4 weeks I thought I had lost about 5 lbs!  If you have FMS, or CFS, or any other chronic illness, you know how huge of an accomplishment this is.  Most people don’t understand that most of us are NOT overeating, we ARE consuming nutritious foods a majority of the time, and are diligent when it comes to pursuing weight loss and health…but no matter how hard we try, we have a hell of a time losing weight (if at all) that used to drop off fairly quickly before our bodies started to ‘donkey out’ on us.  So, yesterday the scale kept reading ERROR and the numbers were flying all over the place.  Scale in trash, off to buy new one.  Stepped on new scale…

No 5lb weight loss, back where I was and a little more….I can’t even convey to you how discouraged I feel.  Either the new scale is right on and the old one had been going on the fritz for weeks showing false weight loss, or new scale would have shown me higher to begin with and I have lost some weight, or….I don’t even know.  I try so damn hard and I’m having a hard time at this moment feeling the slightest motivation to keep trying, although the alternative is unacceptable (to give up).  And , yes, I know how pathetic all this sounds and how much I’ll regret posting this approximately 1 minute after I hit ‘publish’.  If you knew me, you’d know I do NOT open up about things this important to me.  In fact, I will not be promoting this on my Facebook page, because I do not want people I see personally, reading this.  I’m reaching out to my fellow ‘Spoonies’, do any of you deal with this nonsense?  What do you do?

And that leads me to ‘This Sucks’ #2:

2.  On top of ‘my fun with scales’ yesterday, I was doing a little research on FMS and CFS when I saw a suggested topic that read ‘Fibromyalgia Crazy’, and I clicked it…..

Wow.  Now I understand the reason for the purple ‘FMS Awareness’ butterfly on my sidebar. I cannot believe the venomous, hate-filled tirades that are out there on Fibromyalgia.   A lot of these are written by people in the medical profession!  Whole articles on why FMS is ‘all in the heads’ of these hypochondriac ‘crazies’ who no more have a legitimate illness than an individual with psychological issues who spins lies to seek attention.  It was like watching a car accident, profoundly upsetting, but I couldn’t look away!  I was worked up and crying when ‘D’ found me and gave me a lesson in how some people out there are simply nasty as****** who, to quote Alfred Pennyworth, “…just want to see the world burn.”.

All I gots to say is this…be very careful how you judge another…very careful.  You may think weight loss is simply a formula of calories in/calories out, or if the overweight just went to the gym they wouldn’t be fat. Or, you may feel great and therefore cannot understand these ‘crazies’ who complain they are in pain all the time when the doctors can find no discernible reason for their health issues.  Walk a mile my friend, walk a mile.  Understanding a thing is not what makes it legitimate.  1000 years ago, people did not ‘understand’ gravity, but they knew if they jumped off the cliff the out come would be less than stellar.

Well, I’m done here.  If you read this whole rant, thanks.  Really, I do appreciate your hangin’ in, and sorry if this was just a huge bummer to read.  Sometimes you just have a bad day, but I did make a delicious and healthy quick bread, cause who am I kidding?  I cannot give up…..onward we trudge….

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~Whole Grain Red Wheat Raisin Walnut Bread~

~2 cups King Arthur Flour Whole Grain Wheat Flour

~1 tsp baking soda

~1 tsp baking powder

~1/2 tsp sea salt

~1/2 cup refined coconut oil

~1/2 cup raw honey

~1/3 cup raisins

~1/3 cup chopped walnuts

~2 tbsp. ground flax seed

Mix dry ing separate.  Mix wet ing and gently add dry until just incorporated.  Gently stir in raisins, nuts, and seeds.  Pour into loaf pan and bake at 325 for approx. 30-35 min test with knife in middle.

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  • Reply
    July 1 at 10:10 am

    If I send a low calorie smile your way – will it upset you?
    You know, there are ALWAYS plateaus during diets. You just keep going and wait. Losing 5lbs is huge, congrats.

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      July 1 at 10:54 am

      Ha! Ha! Thanks for the encouragement, appreciate it. Unfortunately, I discovered that I had not lost the 5lbs I thought I had, that’s why the discouragement. Thank you for the kind words though, means a lot! 😉

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    July 3 at 8:23 am

    Hi Red,
    My heart goes out to you. I have FMS among numerous other chronic conditions and it can be very hard to deal with the pain. Unfortunately the medical profession criticizes what they don’t understand and if they can’t see it then you imaging it. You, me and thousands of other people know that just because you can’t see a problem doesn’t mean there is one, especially with pain – let them live one day in your body and their understand really quickly. Try not to get discouraged – even though I know that easier said then done!
    Love your recipe. Thanks for sharing it on Real Food Fridays. Pinned & twitted. Have a healthy happy blessed 4th of July weekend.

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      July 3 at 10:39 am

      AMEN Marla! Although I have had FMS for years, I’ve been official only since December so I’m new to the FMS world in a sense. Just beginning to understand the frustration and trials you’ve all been going through for so long. Thank you so much for the encouragement, I can’t tell you how much I appreciate it. Have a truly wonderful day! 🙂

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    July 3 at 10:27 am

    I feel your pain, having a shit day too. Gentle hugs x

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      July 3 at 10:43 am

      LOVE it! This comment made my day 😉 Thank you Jools!

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    July 6 at 8:18 am

    Aww bless you, I know how you feel, I have changed to a glten/dairy free diet a few months ago and although I did it for my health. I did think I may loose a few pounds as well. Didn’t loose anything for the first 5 weeks!! and now I loose one week and out it on the next. As if we don’t have enough fighting to do!!
    On a good note. I am going to make your bread!! It looks delicious 😀 I will just change the wheat flour for a gluten free one and it will be fine for me.
    Cant wait to taste it!!
    I found you through Fibro fog directory and have linked my post up there 🙂 Look forward to reading more from you.

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      July 6 at 10:14 am

      Thanks Wendy! Good luck with Gluten Free! I’m sure your body is loving you for it 😉

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    July 8 at 1:23 am

    Totally acceptable to rant, we all have a bad day and need to vent sometimes.
    Hope you’re having a more positive day today!

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      July 8 at 10:46 am

      Ha! HA! Thanks Lianne! Totally appreciate it 🙂

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    jill conyers
    July 8 at 1:41 am

    My mom has fibromyalgia and a few years ago she went through the same it’s all in your head scenario with a doc or 2. So frustrating! We all have bad days so rant away! We’re here to listen. #fitfamlove xoxo

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      July 8 at 10:46 am

      Thanks Jill! Hope your mom is doing well 😉

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    mrs tubbs
    July 8 at 4:37 am

    Hope today is a better day. Sending you hugs and good thoughts #sharewithme

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      July 8 at 10:58 am

      Thanks so much Mrs. Tubbs! Appreciate the good thoughts 🙂

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    Gentle Joy
    July 8 at 5:31 am

    I’m so sorry you are struggling so much… I understand what you are going through and things can be discouraging… I wish I had an “easy answer” for you and others, but I don’t think there is one. I do know that God will give us the grace we need to go through such hard times… I hope you will feel His grace and comfort in the midst of the ongoing difficulties. .

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      July 8 at 10:59 am

      Thanks Joy! So true! 🙂

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    Deborah Davis
    July 8 at 5:41 pm

    With yummy raisins, honey, nuts and more, this bread rocks! Thank you so much for sharing this healthy and delicious Whole Grain Red Wheat Raisin Walnut Bread recipe at the Plant-Based Potluck Party Link Up. I’m pinning and sharing.

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      July 8 at 10:28 pm

      True that Deb! 🙂

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    zoe dunn
    July 9 at 6:28 am

    I don’t have a chronic illness but I do have lots of sympathy. I think the important thing to try and focus on is not how much weight you did/didn’t loose but how you felt before you stepped on the scales. You said you had been super healthy and were feeling great, maybe it needs to be less about weight loss and more about a healthy lifestyle that makes you feel good both physically and in your self confidence. I know its easy for me to say this as I’m not in the same boat you are but try not to feel too discouraged and don’t worry about the rant everyone has a bad day there’s got to be an outlet somewhere otherwise you’d just turn it inwards. Good luck #sharewithme

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      July 9 at 10:34 am

      Thanks for advice~ have great day! 🙂

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    Lee Good
    July 10 at 4:02 pm

    I also always have trouble in losing weight and yes it sucks and I am so sick of it!! I can never eat a yummy cake/bread like the one pictured. Just needed to vent (Thanks and thanks for sharing this on Fibro Blogger Directory.)

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      July 10 at 4:37 pm

      HA! HA! You know what I was thinking today? Thank goodness alcohol makes me gain weight like ‘that’ (finger snap), or I’d be downing a lot more gin and tonics!! 😉

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    July 12 at 7:55 pm

    Fantastic point made and good for you for ignoring them. Clearly they have no clue and just want to judge. I think the world just doesn’t understand enough of it yet. It’s great that people like you are blogging about it and spreading the reality of it day to day. Thank you so much for linking up to Share With Me #sharewithme

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      July 12 at 9:21 pm

      As always, thanks for the wonderful encouragement Jenny 😉

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    March 7 at 3:52 pm

    I know this is an older post but I really feel a need to reply. I’ve been largely bed bound for weeks now. I had to stop and rest half way through this post and am writing with my head stuck to the pillow. Somedays I wish so hard that I could just allow myself to give up. Our thoughts are so bound in struggle we need an outlet. Your rant made me feel much better. Thank you for posting it.

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      March 7 at 5:16 pm

      HA HA!! 🙂 Thank you Jayne!! I am so very sorry for how you’re feeling. It sucks doesn’t it? 🙁 I hope you feel better soon, and hang in there yourself, don’t you get discouraged! My thoughts are with you, glad my ‘rant’ helped someone 😉

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